You and I will be a tough act to follow

Cindy, I will not let you date Garrett, so that bleak future you see for yourself is poof. Gone.

Seriously though, I think William sees a future with you or he wouldn't have gone back out with you in the first place. I mean, if he's as "realistic" as you say he is (I don't know if I think he is, or if he just thinks he is), he would have thought about it and realized that dating you again would be wasting time when he could be finding that perfect someone.

Now. (fucking...Jasper just peed on the carpet...goddamn it) I don't know a lot about love. Or, really anything. But I know that when I was with Ryan, I was miserable all the time. I was constantly worried, I never felt good enough, etc etc. With Nick that all changed, even on our first date, I wore holy jeans and no make up, and he still wanted to see me again, even though I was sarcastic as shit and looked like poo.
And it worries me that you're crying so hard over William, and he hasn't even said anything yet. He shouldn't make you feel like that, and he shouldn't tell you things like that either. You can get a job teaching music. Inner city kids need music teachers too, plus places like Nottlemans have music teachers, private teachers, etc etc. He should be supportive, not make you feel like you should be picking out a new major. I mean, he's majoring in philosophy. You can ONLY work as a college teacher doing that, does he think that just because he has a graduate degree in it he can just waltz in and get a spot. Most places don't hire people with those higher degrees because you have to pay them more to begin with, so he'd probably have to find a job teaching philosophy while he works on his grad degree, and even then nothing is for sure, you have to work as a college professor for forever before the tenure you.
And if all else fails you can join Nicks band and be a drummer. They have one, but I'm sure I could talk him out of it. It's only his best friend since childhood.
lol.

But seriously. Even if you don't end up with William, you can always live here with me. The only reason I agreed on that spare bedroom was because I knew you would be in it the most. You could live with us while you work on finding a job as a music teacher, Nick knows all the music people in town with his job, and his band, so it might even be helpful. And you can meet other music people, and marry one and have children who fucking love chemistry. And then you will call me crying about how you got children like this, and I'll say it was fate, and then our kids will be married and we'll finally be related.

So my whole point is that, if he doesn't know where he sees himself with you, you should tell him you don't know either. Don't waste the pretty.

-embee