Where is your boy tonight?

I hope he is a gentleman...

Mmm, boy is at band practice AGAIN. I hate it, but I am also the one who told him that if he was hard core, brutal serious about this band thing then he needed to be practicing more than once a week. And, bless his heart, he said, "but then I won't get to see you."
Yeah. I know. I hate it. But how can he be a fucking musician if he has to come home and play with me? So I send him away just about every night to have band practice and occasionally do other things. Like tonight he is doing laundry and bringing me home stamps.
And I went to the gym. I think, every night that he leaves I end up there. I never see any girls who go without their boyfriends. Maybe their boyfriends drag them with them? I have to drag mine to go with me. Perhaps I wear the penis in our relationship.
Mmm, no, wait, that's him.

The only way to feel again is let love in.

That's a good thing about him not being here. No metal. I like metal, but sometimes I want to listen to something that doesn't make my neighbor thing I worship Satan. Although, when the fags across the way were listening to their 30 Seconds to Mars, some nice fucking amon amarth drowned it right out.
Earlier, however, blinds shut, was a good moment for me to dance around singing catchy songs that would make my boyfriend laugh at me. Last night he was funny drunk when he got home from Nates, I like Nick when he can be loosey goosey like that. Normally he doesn't let go like that, but him and Nate were bbqing and doing man shit, and I think that helps. Plus he kind of got fucked at work. But any time my boyfriend is dancing around the living room in a pink polka doted sheet is a good thing.

The faith you've found I've never felt

I guess this blog is going to be brought you by Nick. Hope you don't mind Cindy.

Dude, meeting Nick was like, the weirdest thing ever, because we spent zero time as friends. I still have the first messages where we talked on facebook. He wanted to know about my bass playing, what bands I liked, what bands I didn't like, my political opinions, it was nice to have someone interested in what I thought instead of just blathering on about themselves. It's rare. It took me favor to figure things out about Nick. I think the first thing I figured out about him was his temper, he's got a short fuse like I do, but we rarely both lose it at the same time.
First date, I drove all the way to West County at met him at Dicks, and he thought I was standing him up because he asked where I was and I said I was there, but really I was using the bathroom in the food court. We met by the animal golf coverings. I was wearing ripped up jeans and a black t-shirt, no make up or nothing. He was wearing a black leather jacket, and I thought he was way too good looking to be interested in me. We built snowmen. That's probably when I fell in love with him, he brought me a pair of gloves. He had the same sense of humor I did, and couldn't get over how small my pinkys were.
Second date we went to the City Museum. He thought, since I was from a small area that I must never have been there. I should have lied to him and said I hadn't. We climbed through tunnels and he didnt make me climb up the wires outside because I was afraid. I didn't know he was afraid too.
We went back to his house and he ordered me a cheese pizza (first and last time he has ever done that), and he asked me to be his girl friend.

this is something he sent me. Now I'm being all sentimental going through..
My phone didn't work for the beginning of our relationship. First I couldn't get the w's to work, and then I dropped it in a toilet while changing in a public bathroom and it was dead.
"Hey there! Im guessing your phone isnt working. I sincerely miss you... a LOT! I think you're my good luck charm cuz i won both of my games today and the Giants won the Super Bowl. So i guess im gonna keep you for awhile"
Nick Flowers
cause i love you lots

Marybeth Rosencransengildensern
Februarrry 12 roundabouts 9:18 in the evenin'
but you didn't when you first did it...

Nick Flowers
Februarrry 12 roundabouts 9:19 in the evenin'
how do you know?

Marybeth Rosencransengildensern
Februarrry 12 roundabouts 9:20 in the evenin'
did you?

Nick Flowers
Februarrry 12 roundabouts 9:21 in the evenin'
? maybe?

Marybeth Rosencransengildensern
Februarrry 12 roundabouts 9:22 in the evenin'
when did you figure it out?

Nick Flowers
Februarrry 12 roundabouts 9:24 in the evenin'
idk, but it was before you said it

Marybeth Rosencransengildensern
Februarrry 12 roundabouts 9:25 in the evenin'
it was love at first sight. i knew it.

Nick Flowers
Februarrry 12 roundabouts 9:26 in the evenin'
for you? or are you speaking for me? or making a joke?

Marybeth Rosencransengildensern
Februarrry 12 roundabouts 9:27 in the evenin'
...making a joke? lol, you should have told me when you knew

Nick Flowers
Februarrry 12 roundabouts 9:28 in the evenin'
no way! as cynical as you were. i was afraid of the verbal torment i wouldve faced!


okay I'm neglecting this now.
-embee