mmm... I am ill-equipped to handle this. I'm going to make a terrible wife. Poor William.

I don't waste my time on anyone who doesn't think I'm wonderful.

Sent an email this morning to Dr. Jennings telling him that I no longer wish to be in Cantoria. The hardest part was actually hitting send. Took me about 15 minutes just staring at my screen in fear of what the reply email was going to say. I'm still scared.

Really though. This is what I want, and it'll be good for me. I've been unnecessarily stressed lately, and Cantoria has a lot to do with that.

My recital is March 26 at 4pm... assuming the date/time gets approved.

hands, like secrets, are the hardest things to keep from you

things are gonna change for the better now...


I feel like last night party was a success. It's been forever since I've been able to just let go and be completely myself. It felt so good to be able to include Mike in that too. Everyone was texting me all day today telling me how great they thought he was, and as far as he said, he really liked everyone as well. I wish I hadn't thrown up so much, but it was nice when we both passed out in my tiny ass bed, and I woke up and he had his arms completely wrapped around me and his lips were in my hair, and he was sleeping. My favorite thing in the mornings when I stay over with him is when I open my eyes and hes looking at me. I'm pretty sure I woke him up though, it took me forever to actually get him to get back up, I forget, once you get Mike into bed it's almost impossible to get him out unless an alarm is going off.
I'm sad school is starting Tuesday, I wish I could keep enjoying myself during break for as long as humanely possible. I know I need to complete my degree, but it's not as much funnnn. Ugh.

Tuesday is 6 years. It's funny....one defining moment.

-mb

I don't know why I care, but I hate when people say "Frigerator" ... say Fridge or Refrigerator. If you're going to shorten the word, go through with it, otherwise it just sounds like you're unaware there's an R-E in there.

Cryptic and Vague

I haven't yet decided what I'm going to do with this. I'll keep you posted.

Wedding planning has hit a lull. Not much to talk about I guess. Waiting to hear back from some reception locations, and trying to figure out whether I really want a $700 dress (no), and where to get a cheaper one.

Until the basics are decided, though (like, idk... a date?) everything else is just kind of hard to plan...

William still needs to ask his groomsmen, so that we both for sure have 4. I just really don't want an uneven number...
Ring-bearer has been asked and accepted. Flower girl's grandpa (aka, my uncle) was recently hospitalized for extremely high blood sugar, so I haven't had the chance to ask her yet.

/sigh

School starts Monday.

Nothing else exciting going on for now.