Soundtracks

I'm sitting in my big apartment with two sleeping puppies waiting on my hair to dry just a bit more before I subject it to all the heat it needs to face to insure I look halfway decent in the morning for my all day kill me now shift.
Nick was supposed to be home early, or at least I thought that was what he said, we were going to sit around and talk. But he's with friends. I don't really care, more mildly irritated with the direction my thoughts have taken. I won't pretend that I understand myself any better than anyone else. I talked to Finan about it, I like that we can talk again, and decided to sleep on it a few nights before I made any decisions.
Korey at worked offered me a place to live. Living with Korey would be fucking awesome, but weird at the same time. It would be like living with a brother...who wants in your pants.
Anyway, today a customer was talking about ten songs that he could still remember, even now, and that he would remember until he died (probably not too far off), and it got me to thinking about songs in my life that were significant, and I was surprised there were so many. I guess we never really think too much about the actual soundtrack of our lives, since we are real people and not a disney movie, but there are a few that still stand out in my mind, and that I imagine probably will forever.
I hope so, at any rate.
So, here goes.
In no particular order:

Goodbye To You- Michelle Branch: 8th Grade, me and Cindy dating a certain pair of twins. We orchestrated this whole..fiasco to where we had the band room alone to ourselves, and played this song since said twins were leaving for New York for several days and we would miss them. Cindys twin held a stand in front of his face. Mine gave me a giant dog. It's still embarrassing to think about, but I'm smiling, so that's an improvement. Normally I cringe.

Something Like You- NSYNC: I know it's totally cheesy and way lame, but I feel no shame in admitting it..now. But this was the first song that I actually felt something for. Like, on the inside, your heart flutters, your breathing speeds up, and you think, yeah, I'd like to be that girl. Totally. That was in, like, the sixth grade. No shame.

Here In My Room- Incubus: Had just met Nick, who was charming and handsome, and for some crazy reason couldn't stand being away from me for more than five minutes. Anyway, he wanted us to have a song. Everyone he picked I rejected. He even tried a Pearl Jam one. No. No. No. Anyway, he puts this cd in his car, tells me to shut up, and turns the volume on, and that's when I realized I was in love with him. He sang the lyrics as he drove down the high way, and his face was so sincere. It was a really good moment.

Bang The Doldrums- Fall Out Boy: Sitting at home watching Criminal Minds when I receive a text from Ryan Finan. "Number 11 reminds me of us". Two hours later he said he was in love with me. This song is bittersweet. I wish things had gone different, but never the less, I always remember it when I think of him, and think of him when I hear it.

This Love- Pantera- Mmm...such a dark period in my life. Mostly sitting in my room listening to music, can remember hearing this song randomly and being completely obsessed with it. My mom was freaked out when she heard it come from my radio, but I thank the band a little bit. Listening to them made me feel human again.

Lovesong- The Cure: Seriously, there is nothing bad about this song. The remake is crappy, so don't listen to that one. I used to sing it Colbie in my car or in my room when she was tiny, and she would fall asleep in my lap. It was a good feeling. This is probably the only song that, upon hearing, can change the mood I am in instantly. Catching Brits.

Harder Faster Stronger-Kanye West: Was playing in the car when I first brought Colbie home, she liked the noise. Was playing when I brought her back to the hospital when I thought she was dying. Was playing (because I burned a cd with it on there at that point) when I brought her home. When it plays she always cocks her head at the radio, so I think she knows its her song.

My Curse- Killswitch Engage: I wanted to be the girl the guy was missing in this song. I know better than that now.

Letting The Cable Sleep- Bush: All my times with Pete. Just driving around in his giant truck, making medallions at the art museum, goofing off in Best Buy, anything.

Best Of You- Foo Fighters: I listened to that cd constantly all junior year. That song spoke to me. Plus, every time I watch Episode Three of Star Wars I think of it. Bonus!

That's ten I think. Or I can't count.
Time for hair, then possibly a movie. Or bed.

-mb