I would totally love to go camping, and I would totally love to bring WIll and introduce him to the group.... except that would take a lot of preparation... like

"They're all going to call me Cindy. If you say 'blah blah Cynthia' they are going to respond with '...who? I thought you were dating Cindy?' also... er... there may be some references you don't quite catch, to things you don't quite know about so... uh.... well... let's just make it simple: In high school, everyone basically thought I was a whore, and while I did do somethings I'm not proud of, it was far from whoredom." (spellcheck says whoredom is a word... fascinating.)

So, I guess that would probably be a bad idea... depending on who was going.

I am up way too late, and have been drinking a little (first time since february!!). Dan went to the emergency room today. Haven't heard back from him or Kyle, so I don't know how he's doing, but I'm assuming that when/if anything serious occurs, one way or the other, I will hear from somebody. Maybe. Also, I got notification that my app. for a 1500 loan was denied today. That was supposed to pay for summer school... so now I owe school 1,500, the gas company 150, the water company 180, Hannah 160, and I still have to be able to pay rent and utilities at the end of this month. How am I going to do that, you ask? I'm not. I'm fucked. Super fucked even. Because, even without the loan, I still wouldn't have enough, because Walmart gives me shit for hours, so now I'm applying at McDs and BK in hopes of getting a shift to fit around class, walmart, and sleep.

Fuck

My

Life