Fuck Hollywood...

Well, I saw He's Just Not That Into You tonight... and let me just say... I fucking hate Hollywood, and their "Everyone gets a happy ending" BULLSHIT!!! Have you fuckers even READ the book??!?!?!?!?!??!?! WE ARE THE RULE!!

How dare you make a movie "based on the book" with the message that nearly everyone is actually the exception.

News Flash:

I went there with my friend Dan, who I'm crazy about. Is he into me? No. If I wait around until the "end of the movie" will he suddenly discover that he is? No. So don't make sit through 2 hours of bullshit lies with him, telling me that he will, or probably will. I came back to my room and imed William, who I think I could spend the rest of my life with if I hadn't fucked everything up. Is he into me? No. Does he want me back? No. If I wait around until the "end of the movie" will I find a ring box in the pocket of those stupid fucking kahkis he's always wearing (rain, shine, winter, summer, two feet of snow, two hundred percent humidity) after which he will propose? NO! Will, after both of these let downs, I realize that I really belong with Andrew, and have always wanted that anyway? No. Why? Because I'm just NOT THAT INTO HIM!!!

I'm pretty angry. And pretty depressed.

You know what's making it worse? My whore roommate talking on the phone right behind me with some guy about sex, having sex, where they would have sex, how they want to have sex... it's getting dangerously close to phone sex, people. And the other night, it basically was, except that she wasn't actually touching herself. WTF!?! I'm right fucking here!! Do you not realize how inappropriate this situation is!?

Anyway. I'm pulling an all-nighter, because I saved my shit ton of homework until.... now. 1 am Monday morning.

I really want to throw something.... like a mirror.


Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your reign.

Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.

I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything I think I need here on the ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down