He did say that, kind of, it was just one of those things where it was like, yeah he's saying he'll still do it with me, but I actually have no choice. I can't say, "fuck your mom, I'm still going." y'know? I mentioned it to him last night, that I didn't like the situation him or his mom put me in, and I was letting it go this time under the expectation that it was never going to happen again. And he was really nice about it, he said it wouldn't, so I'm letting it go for now. Yeah, he was totally in the wrong, but there's not a whole lot I can do about it now since last night I basically let him off the hook for it. He had fun, and I don't want a fight, so I'm picking my battle. If it happens again though, I'm gonna fuck his world up.

I was kind of thinking today, about dating, because I've been on a lot of first dates, but I have only had a few actual relationships, and even fewer serious ones. And it's not because those boys don't like me, it's usually the other way around. I know a lot of girls don't like having to play the game, they want to meet the perfect guy the first time, which I totally feel. Dating tons of people is work, trying to remember names and crap, and having to tell the same stupid stories over and over, asking the same pointless questions. We all want someone who gets us right off the bat. All I could think was that, in order to actually have that, you have to play the game first. You have to sit there and smile and pretend to a pretty little girl, you can't talk about anything too serious, that you aren't trying to jump into marriage or that you have serious opinions about gay marriage, because men don't want to hear that. They all assume we're trying to trap them into something, so you have to play their game (because, lets face it, we are smarter than men, and we play the game better). Once they think you're a chill girl, and they want you around six days a week, and you've got them, then you can be yourself, because they want that. Plus, I'm pretty sure they don't notice anymore. I told Brian in the beginning I hated arguing, and we argue all the time. Sometimes I like it, but he doesn't remember I told him that which is the point I'm getting at. And for the record, I don't start arguments because I'm bored or anything, I mean, arguing like disagreeing about harmless crap. Not arguing because he's retarded.
My whole point here is play the game. Once you have them YOU HAVE THEM. It's worth it. Boys forget what you said almost immediately after you said it.

Brian is watching midgets yell at each other. That's why I love this boy.

peace
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