maybe it's time to stop wasting money up at truman and come home and do it down here? my aunt mickey told me that when she's hiring someone and they see c, d's, and f's, they throw the application out without looking it over anymore. she said sometimes they'll look someone over to see if it was just a semester, to see if maybe something bad happened early on, like freshman year, but if you fail classes for your major they never consider it. that's pretty scary considering how tough getting a job is. i'm glad i haven't messed around in any of my classes, despite changing my major twice. all a's. if you're failing you could seriously be jeopardizing your future. i'm not trying to be mean, i'm seriously concerned about you, you never sound happy when you talk unless you're talking about william, and lately everything you've said about him is about him being mean, or you guys fighting.
i don't know anything about it, i know, i'm here, and we don't talk a lot about it. all i'm saying is that failing or even hating where you are but staying is not healthy. really, i have been there, staying somewhere because of a guy, im afraid to leave him because i don't know if i can ever love someone like i loved him, while he is mean and snippy with me, always mad and moody, and it was messing me up, tip toing around him, backing down even when i hadn't done anything right.
it might not even be the same.
but it sounds like it.

you dont have to pay any attention to this, and like i said, i'm not writing it to be a jerk or butt into your business. i'm sure willaim is nice, and you have awesome reasons for staying at truman, but if you're unhappy or doing poorly, maybe consider coming back, or doing something up there that would make you happy?

on an unrelated note, i met a boy, out of the blue, cute, nerdy, not sure if he likes me, i like him...ugh. im so nervous. its unusual, i'm usually so sure i can have any boy i want. i havent second guessed myself since highschool. i hate it.

i have the best looking valentines date. rob schulte! i asked him last night, so now i have a date to the moolah, yay! bought my tickets today. bummer youre not going. :/

-mb