Love really is the best thing in the world.

Mike decided to put me on blast today. I've been trying to talk to him about the whole situation with Brian for the last week, and he was always like, "its no big deal," and "i'm not upset," and I thought, that's so weird, because I would be pissed. I even told him that, and he said, "i'm not most people."
WHAT A FUCKING LIAR. This morning we were supposed to meet up so I could my stuff back and give him back his, but I spent yesterday with Brian enjoying the nice weather instead of doing Mikes laundry (it wasn't a touch choice). So anyway, I texted him and told him I hadn't actually done any of his laundry, and we agreed to meet up another day, possibly Thursday. He then proceeds to ask me if I have big Valentines Day, and I said not really, because I don't. Brian is working late, so we're just gonna chill unless Brian is planning something and I'm not aware of it, which I doubt. He knows how much I like to plan my outfits according to what we're doing.
Anyway, Mike mentioned he was going to a Blues game, and I told him to enjoy the jersey, which has to remind him that he didn't actually get me a Christmas gift, since he never gave me he the Kesha tickets, and he decided to pick that moment to say this whole thing has been weird. I can't say I'm shocked, but it annoyed me considering I had been trying to talk to him about this for last week, and he kept telling me everything was fine. I understand he has a right to ask questions, but a break up is the moment for those questions, not whenever he feels like it. I tried to be nice about it, but he is acting like I made it a competition between him and Brian the whole time, which I never did. Until the Super Bowl Brian was never even an option really. I started talking to Brian when I was trying to break up with Mike. It's making me sick in that angry/nervous way where I want to be like, "AND I FUCKING SLEPT WITH HIM WHILE I WAS DATING YOU!"
Yes. I was always still in love with Brian. Did that mean I only dated Mike to make Brian jealous, or because I was biding my time waiting for Brian to change his mind? No. I genuinely liked Mike. Mike was the one who said he didn't know if he had time. Did I text Brian wanting him back? Not specifically. I missed him, but was at the point where you can be friends. Did Brian and I talk for three days after that? Yes. Did we admit we still had feelings for each other? Yes. Did I break up with Mike for Brian? Yes. Does that mean I was trying to do that through my whole relationship with Mike? No, I wanted things to work. I tried really hard. I did everything he asked me to, I waited around all day for him sometimes only for him to bail on me, I drove over to Illinois twice a week to see him even though I hate bridges and the fact that he usually just went to sleep when I got there. I tried hard, I put a lot of my time and energy into it, and he was just not willing to do the same. I'm really really irritated.

Anyway, it's Valentines Day, and I'm happy to be with the man I love, to live with my friends (even if they drive me crazy sometimes), and still be friends with you (aawww gagpukedie) and everyone else in my life.

peace out girl scout
mb