I really, really hate being lied to... consistently.... for no apparent reason at all.

I really

really

do.

Because when someone close to me, whom I trust deeply, lies to me, without a damn good reason (like, say, to save my life...or theirs... or... well saving anyone's life is acceptable.) I don't really know how to handle it. I'm hurt. I'm confused. And it's not like it's the first time. or the second. or even probably the third, if we're being honest about it. Another thing that bothers me about it? If the shoe were on the other foot (It wouldn't be, though, because I wouldn't have been given so many second chances), this would already be way out of hand.

I need a bit to think about how to even begin to handle this situation, because I'm tired of just... letting it go and pretending like it's not happening, or that I don't know... etc.


I'll write more later or something... idk right now.