So, I'll probably forget, and Im a day behind anyway, and I've never been one for following the rules, so here's another day. I'm also gonna add the part of day one that I didn't do... if you're wondering, yes, I also do my homework in this crazy senseless way, and I get Bs in easy classes because of it, but y'know... I don't really care. I have a good gpa and that's all anyone's gonna look at.
Habit I wish I didn't have? --- I'm just gonna say it, even though I've been hiding it for years. Enough people know now, and I stopped giving a shit if people think I'm creepy, because if that's the case, they're stupid bitches. I mean, honestly. So, I pull my eyelashes out. It's a mild type of OCD, and I've met one other person (Bonnie <3) who does it, and that's what gave me the strength to start admitting that I do it, because I really look up to Bonnie, and when she told me about that, I was really jealous of how ok she was with it. I think I was just always really embarrassed because of the way people treated that girl in high school who pulled out her hair. I mean, I don't eat mine like she does, but I'm sure she can't help it anymore than I can. It's more than something like biting your nails. Biting your nails is a habit, and when someone pulls your hand away from your mouth it's like, "Oh yeah, I shouldn't do that." but when, for instance, William pulls my hand away from my eye... it's like... it's hard to explain, but I go crazy, and it's all I can think about. Which is why it's actually an OC and not really a habit per say.
So I'll count that as one of the 15 things and move on to number 2.
2. I hate wet paper. It freaks me out. especially wet paper, cardboard, cloth... anything particularly dry, being in my mouth, or seeing it in someone elses. Like when people chew on the collar of their shirt. If I do come in contact/see wet paper, I lick my lips like crazy.
3. I always do things to the left of me...if not right in front of me. I can't do things (like eat, write, etc.) if it's to my right, which I don't think has anything to do with my handedness, just... I like facing to my left, and I feel mildly uncomfortable facing to the right... not so much that I can't face the right, just that I will make every effort not to.
4. I live with my boyfriend, William, if you didn't already know. We've been dating for 2 1/2 years.
5. I ~will~ live in another country for at least a year. I have several versions of my life plan, all of which (even my back up) include a significant time abroad.
6. I would change my major if I thought I could stand/afford to stay here for a few more years. I love my lessons and my studio teacher, but most of the rest of it makes me hate my life.
7.I HATE clique-y-ness! ugh. It's really high school, and I absolutely hate it. Especially since I always try to be good friends with everyone which usually results in me just being an outsider to several cliques. I'm not talking about circles of friends, because those are just natural. I'm talking about things like in the music dept, and even in rpg club, where a particular group of people are seen as, not necessarily "elite," but... exclusive to themselves. You can't join unless you have an "in"... meaning you start dating someone in the group, or become very close to a key member. People just need to get the hell over themselves.
8. I am over myself. I realize how insignificant I am to the universe, and I don't think I'm entitled to a damn thing, except to make my own choices, and live with them.
9. I feel like my bitchy high school self is resurfacing. I'm sure MaryB is glad. I can't wait to put someone in their place again. I mean, that was like my job back then. People would get all high on themselves, and I would promptly shove them off their pedestal and remind them that no one gives a shit.
10. I get very sick of people sometimes--no... often. I'm not, like, bitter or anything, and I'm sure I sound super cynical (it does start with the same three letters as Cynthia...) but really I'm just... I'm over it. I'm done giving people the benefit of the doubt. It is what it is, it is like it seems. It kind of goes with MaryB's last real post. If a guy starts talking about sex on the first date, it means one of his top priorities is making sure he's gonna get laid. If you're not ok with that... gtfo. Don't be stupid. It's like people purposefully blind themselves to things because they don't want to admit that it really just is that bad.
11. I play WoW. It's about as addictive as the Sims, and for very similar reasons. For those who haven't played it... it's like The Sims, for fantasy fans (esp. LotR) but multiplayer. It's like what The Sims Online wished it was. The differences are that you don't play a family, you play one character (though, you can have more than one, you just can't play more than one at once). The goals of the game are more interesting (You're saving the world, not paying your bills). The world is more elaborate, and it's like playing the life you wish you could have, where fairytales and mythical creatures are real, and you go on adventures and fight bad guys with your friends. You can be a loner if you want, but it's not fun for me that way. I like the interaction with other people.
12. I think society is a bitch. There's all this pressure and bullshit that keeps people from legitimately trying things because it's "weird" or "nerdy"... and now some "nerdy" things are cool, but others aren't. It's annoying. I've tried so many awesome things in college since I got away from high school's stupid bullshit. There's still people who don't though and it's... I don't know. I hate when I hear people talk about the "HvZ freaks." Fuck you. Have you played it? no. They are having fun, and no one's making you join in, so just... just GET OVER YOURSELF. You are not better than someone because you are too "mature" to play with nerf guns. I'm sorry that you've grown out of having fun and being active... please, go back to productive things like beer pong. (I'm not dissing Beer Pong. It's quite entertaining/fun, but it's "cool" so it's ok if we drink out of cups after a ball (that's been rolling on the floor where drunk people vomit) was thrown in it. To me, that's way weirder than shooting people with nerf guns)
13. I wish I took more pictures. I know I'm going to look back on college and think, "I really wish I had more pictures."
14. I put salt on everything that isn't sweet, and I put honey on everything that is. This is a fact. Ok... except Ramen Noodles because they come with a seasoned salt packet.
15. I need to graduate. I don't want to leave here, but I'm so apathetic about classes this year. It's ridiculous. I've just clocked out I guess.
That was a hard list to think of. Glad I'm done. On to more productive things--nah... on to WoW.
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