I go over this in my head again and again and again... the only reason I'm still at Truman is because I want to spend the rest of my life with William. It's a terribly reason to be here, but... I guess anything that motivates me to stay in school is a good thing.

I'm really worried I might fail some classes this semester.

Why does life have to be so fucking difficult and stressful.

and why does my boyfriend have to dissect everything in our relationship until he finds something that's wrong.

I mentioned relationship counseling (they offer it at the UCS). He didn't think it would be helpful, which means it probably wouldn't be.

I just want everything to be perfect, and happy... is that too much to ask? I guess so...