Goddammit!

I do not understand why the universe wont just let me get up at 6:30 so I can make it to class on time...

I don't even want to fucking be here anymore. I'm so tired, and I'm just sick of it. I feel trapped though. I'm trying so hard to make it through these four years so that I don't feel like my life is a failure, and I can make a decent salary, but it just gets harder and more stressdul every fucking day, and today I missed my 7:30 class for the I-don't-know-how-many-th time, and after 6 I fail the class. I don't know if this is 6, but I'm really hoping it's not. If it is, and I fail, not only will my GPA take a huge hit, but I will drop below full time status and all of my loans will start expecting to be paid.

I don't even know why I came here anymore, but I'm staying for all the wrong reasons.